walking for hours through the woods,
I don't know what I'm looking for,
maybe for something
shy and beautiful to come
frisking out of the undergrowth.
Once a fawn did just that.
My dog didn't know
what dogs usually do.
And the fawn didn't know.
As for the doe...
dreaming that everything was fine...
The way I'd like to go on living in this world
wouldn't hurt anything, I'd just go on
walking uphill and downhill, looking around,
and so what if half the time I don't know
so what if it doesn't' come
to a hill of beans...
In the films of Dachau and Auschwitz and Bergen-Belsen
the dead rise from the earth...
while the rest of the world
My dog and the fawn
did a little dance...
Oh, you never saw such a garden...
A many sits there...
He is finishing lunch...
A bottle of wine...
He fills a glass...
He lifts it to his mouth and drinks peacefully.
It is the face of Mengele.
Late the doe came wandering back into he twilight.
She stepped through the leaves. She hesitated,
sniffing the air.
Then she knew everything.
The forest grew dark.
She nuzzled her child wildly.
I am the gentle dog, fawn, doe, and Mary waiting in innocence for beauty to come before us, never dreaming that horror waits for me and mine. Is in me and mine. For just as easily that Mary's dog doesn't know what to do, other dogs do. I myself do not keep dogs in the home. I have heard too many stories of gentle dogs going hunting, singly or even more dangerous as a pack, and killing cats and birds they share homes with, or going in search in neighbors yards. Life is like a stroll in a garden, be it woods or the ordered loveliness of a German country estate. Who doesn't yearn for beauty, and in that searching forget the violence within and without, which invites the dogs of war not to dance, but to scrape away the shy hope of our kin and kind. In response to who we are, primates on the verge of anticipated genocide, may we look for beauty and sniff the air for the whole story, and wildly embrace who we are and the love we are capable of giving, and the lives we are capable of taking.
If you could, what would you wildly embrace today?